Here is my new blog, with the current posts retained, in all its glory:
Sunshine Aficionada

So this is my favorite out of all the poems I’ve written…and it’s with Jaejoong in mind. Actually, I was thinking about Junsu’s voice during one of the lines. *smacks self for being fickle* Okay, just consider it my tribute to all of DBSK, but primarily Jaejoong – and since it’s his birthday, this is for Jaejoong only.

Loving You

We are a world apart.
You glow in the spotlight, capturing hearts with every tender smile.
Always you are surrounded by the red ocean of your admirers.
I weave through fifty thousand fans to reach the stage and touch your fingertips.
Only your trembling hands betray your burden of unparalleled fame.
My heart plays fireworks every precious moment I am in your presence.
♥
Unfathomable, your eyes are my sunrise.
Your voice is gentle magic, melting hearts of steel bit by bit.
Your charisma is the glittering sun breaking through stormy clouds.
Your back view resembles falling white snow, lonelier than the moonlight.
You are more than the air I breathe.
You are mine, a song I will never finish singing.

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I’m such a fangirl, I know. But double J is infinitely special to me.

In another effort to console myself, I shall post all the guys I’ve ever liked…in three categories but otherwise no particular order. Y’all know how fickle and drooly I am. I would happily marry any of the eternal lovers, and possibly the sweethearts, although the extended flings are…one-sided flings after all. Methinks I have unparalleled taste in men. In time I may add to this list, but it is after the accumulation of ALL my favorites over my seventeen years.

The Eternal Lover (a galaxy past obsession)

Kim Jaejoong and Kim Junsu (DBSK)
Cho Kyuhyun (Super Junior)
Tuomas Holopainen and Emppu Vuorinen (Nightwish)
Fitzwilliam Darcy (Pride and Prejudice)
Jean-Claude and Asher (Anita Blake Vampire Hunter Series)

The Sweetheart (over the moon past obsession)

Jung Yunho, Park Yoochun, and Shim Changmin (DBSK)
Lee Donghae and Choi Siwon (Super Junior)
Shinobu Sensui, Itsuki, Karasu, Hiei, Sakyo, and Yomi (Yu Yu Hakusho)
Sheftu (Mara, Daughter of the Nile)
Gilbert Blythe (Anne of Green Gables)
Kell Moreland/Hakan Thorikell (Between Light and Shadows, unpublished)
Demmi (Scepter of Light, unpublished)
Marik Barok (Shadow Union, unpublished)
Spike (Buffy the Vampire Slayer)
Kyo Sohma (Fruits Basket)

The Extended Fling (healthy obsession)

Orion (my Finnish friend )
Rafael Nadal
Roger Federer
Perttu Kivilaakso and Eicca Toppinen (Apocalyptica)
Legolas Greenleaf (The Lord of the Rings)
Severus Snape (Harry Potter)
Ouyang Ke and Yang Kang (Legend of Condor Heroes)
Lestat de Lioncourt (The Vampire Chronicles)
V (V for Vendetta)
Nicholas Teo
Mike He
Kim Bum
Wu Zun
Chen Kun

Bright and early Saturday morning was my Harvard interview at a cafe. It was short but fantastic, with a very friendly Ph.D. candidate in child clinical psychology. But I ruined it at the very end by spilling my beautiful very berry smoothie all under the downstairs couch. And the stupid cashier tried to steal sixteen bucks, as if I wouldn’t notice only receiving a nickel for change after giving him a twenty for a smoothie!

That night I actually realized that the Sorry Sorry Answer song had been released over a month ago, even though I thought it wasn’t out yet because several weeks ago I had favorited a “making of the MV” vid. Mmmmm Kyuhyun like a prince on his throne! Black and white filming style! Siwon getting dressed and Donghae rapping! So much luxury…watches, candles, vintage records, champagne, library, black car…*drool*

Sunday wasn’t too fun with calc homework, long rehearsal, and physics…but then I found a high quality version of the latest Autumn’s Concerto episode uploaded so soon, and got an epic wuxia-modern crossover story update from my awesome twin. In my part of the story, I was saved from poison during my encounter with Ouyang Ke – while Prince Junsu and Advisor Jaejoong had search parties out for me, the kidnapped palace maid – by none other than Kyuhyun, who was singing and playing the flute as I rested! And I got accepted to adopt the fanlisting for Jung Yunho (U-Know), the leader of my favorite group DBSK! Whoooooooo!!

A very rudimentary resolutions list:

Academic

1. Stop being slightly OCD about perfect handwriting.
2. Don’t get below a B+ in physics or calc.
3. Hopefully get over two more college acceptances (highest likelihood of four acceptances out of seven).
4. Unleash some more brainpower in class (bad tendency to doze or obsess over handwriting).

Fandom

1. Actually finish one of the four novels I’ve started that are still at page 30 or so. Hopefully first priority will be my new sci-fi novel, which should ultimately reach at least 100,000 words.
2. Watch more ancient China movies/dramas. Definitely Painted Skin and finish Return of Condor Heroes. Also listen to more Chinese music, especially Jane Zhang.
3. Fall in love with someone who’s not in DBSK or SJ-M.

I hope to fulfill most, if not all of them. By the end of the year, anyway. Wish me luck.

I’m really happy that the laptop I ordered after Thanksgiving arrived just a week ago. Lovely screenshot here…beautiful wallpaper, eh? I’m loving Windows 7 and FireFTP, which I installed on the laptop and is a million times better than FileZilla, which I currently use.

Not to mention that in addition to December 25 being Christmas, it’s also the birthday of Nightwish’s Tuomas Holopainen (♥) and the sixth anniversary of DBSK (♥)! WHOOOOOOOOOO!!!

So to celebrate, here comes a couple of DBSK performances from Tokyo Dome!! My gods, look at Cassiopeia, the red ocean!! And the rising gods of the east on stage!!! Flawless performances. You can see the beads of sweat on their faces, their soulful eyes as their pour their hearts into the songs…plus Love in the Ice is sorta winter-themed and therefore relevant to Christmas, eh? Enjoy and shed tears.

[HD] Love in the Ice
[HD] Mirotic and Heart Mind and Soul

As for holiday games…well on Wednesday I played Apples & Apples in Latin for the first time! And lost because I only got three cards. The adjectives are supposed to describe you…well, mine were: responsible, filthy, and cold. Whooo. Since I lost I had to clean up. But then at yesterday’s fantastic Christmas party I totally wiped the floor. My cards were: inspirational, wild, sultry, hot, healthy, explosive, demanding, sweet, lovable, hostile, spunky, wicked, rich, and glamorous (courtesy of a useless good memory). Yay me. Plus I got to meet a 24-year-old grad from my high school who graduated from Cornell in financial engineering and now works on Wall Street. My dream too, perhaps? His parents’ house is actually diagonally behind mine, and I never knew. Haha. He plays hockey (my hockey card sure helped me win the healthy card in Apples & Apples while he was judging) and from far away looked like SuJu’s Siwon, though up close not really.

Well, now I have seven college essays left to write, whoo. And I’m still having trouble picking specific departments/colleges/majors. Darn. I’ll just have to think of the encouragement of my two double 2400 friends from CC. Since I got deferred from Y, I’ll have to work hard on these essays. And if worse comes to worse I’m going to study abroad in Finland, get a job at Nokia, marry a certain Finn, and live happily ever after (joking about the second to last one).

I also got tons of homework, although the Lit poetry journal assignment seems scrumptious. And I want to start writing my new sci-fi novel. Never finished my three previous novels, haha.

And when I don’t pay attention in class…well, I count male-female ratios instead. It’s quite fascinating, actually… in Physics the male-female ratio is 2:1, in Gov it’s 3:1, in Comp Sci it’s 4:1, in my wonderful invincible hockey team (which will sadly switch a bit come Monday) it’s 5:1, and in TECS club it’s 6:1. Lucky me?

And obviously, what’s a blog post from Sherry without some celebrity oogling? I’ve felt a bit more distant in my obsession with Junsu oppa lately, although his birthday happens to be December 15, when Early Action decisions come out! I pray that he’ll…bless me? And I’ve told myself never to stray from DBSK, because other boy bands just can’t compare…that is, except for Super Junior-M! I do find some Super Junior songs catchy (like It’s You), but I’m only a fan of Super Junior-M. The four Korean members’ Chinese pronunciation far exceeds that of DBSK members…but then again, there are three Chinese members to help them out. Kyuhyun (Prince Kyu to me ♥) is my favorite, although I certainly like Donghae and Siwon as well! This has led me to conclude that my criteria for absolutely favorite celebrities are:

1. Insanely cute
2. Heavenly voice
3. Talented with languages

Kyuhyun and Junsu match them all, plus some – they both have superb senses of humor and are just SO adorkable! Yes, adorkable!! I’m bursting with glee that adorkable isn’t underlined in red on my browser! Yep, Kyu and Junsu are both the wonderfully innocent type who can transform from adorable boys to mature and downright mmmm men in the blink of an eye. Now that’s enough drooling and swooning from MVs, live performances, and interviews.

Too much work + drool = crazy me, of course. Surprise surprise!

I rarely ask for academic help from anyone. Frequently I give help to others, or more likely I keep to myself. But from the looks of it, for the first time in my life I have become that dreaded “damsel in distress.” In my intimidating gym class I cannot tie knots on ropes or properly put on the jumble of belts and harnesses to save my life. Literally – otherwise I’d fall off the terrifying, freakishly high climbing wall. It seems like I need some serious instruction from a knowledgeable guy who helped me yesterday, or else I’d likely fumble and fall off the wall and break a few bones.

I knew that Computer Science wouldn’t be a breeze either, and I expected my class to cover much more difficult Java material than the (X)HTML, CSS, and PHP that I taught myself for five years. So far I’ve been able to create a face, a math calculation, a red cross, a bull’s eye, and a moving black box. I’ve only been able to accomplish the last three thanks to hints from the guy next to me. In Physics, I have three assigned lab partners – all of them guys. And being the Excel-inept person that I am, I had to get help from them concerning writing proper equations for my misaligned cells.

Ah…I’m a total failure. At least I became a National Merit Semifinalist…yay…but that doesn’t mean I have any common sense or practical smarts in the least.

Today was terribly rainy…suddenly I became everyone’s best friend to cross the street with, and my umbrella was showered with compliments (well, it does have a very pretty blue floral design, since it was quite expensive and bought in China, but my silly dad happened to vacuum off parts of the bottom handle when it was on the ground, grr).

Oh, and somehow I have a taller twin (similarly obsessed with dramas and wuxia and DBSK boys and hot actors) whose rhyming name gets mixed with mine a lot, as well as a long-time friend who is somehow now considered my short Hispanic twin. Great.

Also, new note to self – never get hooked onto those FictionPress stories. There are so few stories worth reading, but I also stumble upon the longest ones, and they are a wonderful marathon read – but also a major source of procrastination. Since I don’t ever get enough sleep, I’d better stop. But it never happens…it’s just like saying my love for Junsu and DBSK will die. NEVERRRR. Keep the faith, DBSK forever. <3

Today I discovered the UFOs – and too late to sign the SM Town English UFO petition. This is one of those moments when I wish I were physically closer to them. Korean and Chinese (and often Japanese) fans can have a direct way to communicate with any/all DBSK members, and through quite an intimate method of contact – texting. I spent all morning reading through translations of UFO replies on Cassiopeia Family (though I always had to post in order to see them). To ask the DBSK oppas for encouragement on school exams, to confess their love, to tell a joke…this is even better than Nightwish’s Nightmail, because fans and artists communicate through phone texts, and the right fan could get replies from several members and even initiate a conversation. Let me express my envy. So Chinese fans who don’t know any/much Korean, who probably can’t even pronounce the members’ names correctly, get to text them and receive replies in either Korean or Chinese (from Yunho) or English. All that simply on the basis that they reside in China. No fair. I’d get a phone (yes, I don’t have a cell phone) just for UFOs if it were possible.

Now time to promote. I’ve spent far too much energy drooling, so I’m afraid I won’t be able to post URLs. After all, I’d have to keep typing target=”blank” for new windows, and already one of my favorite videos has disappeared, and I definitely don’t want to waste effort on dead links. So here goes my selection of the best DBSK MVs, performances, covers, dramas, shows, and DVDs. Check out any/all of them on YouTube.

MVs:
Mirotic
Doushite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattandarou (Why Did I Fall in Love With You)

Performances:
Bolero
Mirotic
Love in the Ice
Wrong Number
Don’t Say Goodbye
Are You a Good Girl
You’re My Melody
Doushite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattandarou and Summer Dream (A-Nation 2008)
Choosey Lover

Covers:
I Can’t Put it Into Words
Lion Heart

Mini Dramas:
The King’s Man parody
Unforgettable Love
First Love
Dangerous Love
The Masked Fencer
Uninvited Guest
Finding Lost Time
Tokyo Holiday

Guest Appearances:
Rainbow Romance (Yunho)
Golden Fishery (Yoochun and Jaejoong)

Upcoming Dramas:
Paradise Meadows (Changmin)
Headbutting the Ground (Yunho)
Heaven’s Postman (Jaejoong)

Vacation:
Cassiopeia (Yunho)
Beautiful Life (Junsu and Changmin)
The Way U Are (Jaejoong)
Eternal (Yoochun)

Shows:
Star Show
Star King
Come to Play
Cooking Variety Show
DBSK BigEast 2nd/3rd Fanclub Event
Fantastic Partners (Junsu, Yoochun, Changmin)
Music Japan Special
Family Outing (Junsu and Yunho)
Shin Dong Yup and Shin Bong Sun’s Champagne

DVDs:
DBSK “Bonjour Paris”

I would say that the most worthwhile shows to watch are DBSK’s appearances in Star Show, Star King, and Come to Play (downright hilarious during the first half, but more deep the second half). DBSK in Paris is a rousing adventure; I was vicariously experiencing Paris through them. Sooo many great and funny scenes:

Junsu’s butt hurts, they sing a capella, Jaejoong gets attacked by tree branches, Yunho yells “everybody put your hands up” and “Korea fighting” to whole crowds of people, Jaejoong’s mission to get 5 people to wave back to him on boats and buses, Junsu drunk on sugary beverages, Yunho slapping horse’s butt on merry-go-round, Yoochun pretending he’s Jamaican, Yoochun’s dog showered, bowing pharaohs, Junsu’s gibberish, little girl scared of Yoochun in playground, Junsu food snatching, Jaejoong’s UFO trick, Micky & Minnie, Jaejoong’s diagonal run, Junsu and Yunho fly kicking and handstands, naming myths of fountain, Yunho’s prada wears the devil, Yunho still thinks Paris is a country at the end of the trip, Paris to Yunho = party, Paris to Junsu = mosquito, Changmin being the only sane person, but narcissistic enough to check himself in the reflection of a glass display of a movie poster…wow that was the longest sentence ever. But, watch “Bonjour Paris” and support DBSK!

Aja aja hwaiting, oppas!

As for the lawsuit issue that started at the end of July…I fully support Junsu, Jaejoong, and Yoochun oppas! SM Entertainment has gone too far with a 13-15 year contract, letting each member get 0.4-1% of the total profits, and tiring the boys out with so many events that they only get 3-4 hours of sleep each night. Today (August 21st) was the first day in court…and darn the SM lawyers for implying that Junsu’s advance payment last month (to settle his account for income taxes) was used to file the lawsuit. And why on earth would Junsu, Jaejoong, and Yoochun becoming owners of a cosmetic company violate the “exclusive” contract with SM? I support DBSK all the way and hope they pass through this crisis with SM soon without conflicts among the members. And Cassiopeias always remember that 5-1=0!!

First I’m going to shamelessly declare my devotion to Kim Junsu (stage name Xiah), my favorite member of DBSK. I’ve gone perhaps the same route as more than half of DBSK’s fangirls – paying attention to only Jaejoong when first introduced to DBSK, but gradually loving one of the other four. I still think JJ has the largest number of fangirls, but that’s good news to me. There are so many reasons to love Junsu, and no reason to not love him. Here goes:

- He has a very warm personality and is almost always smiling. He said himself that he’s a nice person without a tendency to get jealous. Very charismatic.
- He has the most unique voice in DBSK. Very sweet and angelic, hence giving way to his reputation as the “angel” and the “dolphin.”
- He composes absolutely beautiful ballads, like Rainy Night and White Lies. Since the pains of love in the songs are based on experience, he reveals a very deep heart.
- He can play piano and guitar, whoo!
- He’s very talented at soccer, and the second best dancer in the group, after Yunho. His bouncing hips, pelvic thrusts, and duck butt give me a nosebleed. He does awesome handstands!
- Even in the eyes of the other members, Junsu has no “Casanova potential.” When his chair plummeted in the game in Come to Play (representing his 5th place playboy status), I was beside myself with joy. Yeah, playboys are cool in dramas, but I prefer someone like…Junsu! Haha that was obvious.
- He’s a cute eater; because he has sensitive teeth, Junsu eats ice cream by sticking out his tongue first. He’s also an incredibly fast eater; he even drinks coffee in one shot. After returning to Paris from a brief commercial-shooting trip in Brazil, he receives such a warm welcome from the other DBSK members, but can only say in response, “I’m hungry.” Haha, he’s Changmin #2. Junsu can’t cook very well, but I would eat his messy natto takoyaki any day!
- Junsu’s a book lover; if he’s not at home, school, or SM, he’s usually in the library or bookstore. This was before he turned into a superstar with no time on his hands, of course.
- He has no alcohol tolerance. Which means he’ll never stay out all night drinking! It also means Junsu can get high on any sugary beverage…as demonstrated in Paris.
- He has fewer celebrity friends than the other members, mostly communicating with his older fraternal twin brother. When there’s an attractive, unattainable guy, girls always think “If only he had a twin brother I could snatch!” Well, his brother Junho (this would also be the name of a potential DBSK couple, Junsu & Yunho, but unfortunately there’s only Yoosu) would be the one, but there’s no one like Junsu!
- His mom is a former Miss Korea, who is also vocally talented. Beautiful voice and appearance must run in the family then! (Imagine a former Miss Korea as a mother-in-law…I’m going to get a nosebleed soon if I don’t stop hallucinating.)
- He’s the most predictable member in DBSK; according to the others, even if he disappears no one worries about him, because they know Junsu is probably in the PC room playing video games.
- Junsu isn’t the best at buying matching clothes…so while the other DBSK members fuss over what to buy, Junsu just gets whatever is on the mannequin! I’m a careless shopper too. We’re shopping soulmates! Ahem.
- He likes girls who wear turtlenecks, and especially likes girls who are intellectual (and wear glasses), with no make-up, and girls who are active and work out. (YAAAAY!!)
- He wears glasses and looks mega hot in them, as do the other four members.
- He can speak Kenyan – or a gibberish form of it. He’s shown off his “Kenyan” on two shows before, and I could’ve sworn he repeated the same phrases when they were in Paris discussing dogs to buy (Junsu was set on Pomeranian).
- His “sexy look,” as demonstrated on Star Show, consists of piercing eyes and licking his lips. Mmmm.
- His “killer smile” with his six-year-old mini version on Star King is the cutest spectacle I’ve ever witnessed. Two angels…and then a kiss!!
- Although the little gymnast girls on Star King were really pervy, three out of five picked Junsu as their favorite. Good to know that the youngest (who got Yunho to hug her and Jaejoong to sing to her just because it was her birthday) wanted to marry him. Back off my Junsu and wait at least ten years to be my age before you start dancing suggestively at Junsu, pervy girl.
- Oh, and also, Junsu is not a camwh–e like Jaejoong and sometimes Changmin, Yoochun, and Yunho (who’s the “surprise camwh–e”).
- He believes that flowers make better presents than movie tickets; he can’t express himself honestly to the girl he loves; he would choose music over love; he believes it shouldn’t just be the face that counts, but also the body. (Although I was slightly surprised, I understand his reasoning. His “type E” girl turned out to be very pretty, although Jaejoong, who picked the same for everything except the face counted more, got the prettiest actress in Korea. Haha, then I’m glad about Junsu’s choice.)
- I will never forget how cute Junsu was when he cried out “Ow, my butt” on the double-deck tour bus in Paris.
- Along with Jaejoong, Junsu is one of very few men who can get away with wearing earrings and man purses and still look unbelievably hot.
- He speaks Korean (duh) and Japanese fluently. He sings English beautifully and his Chinese pronunciation is better than that of the other members.
- He is the shortest member at 178 cm (5′10″), and exactly a foot taller than me. Mmmm.
- He’s the second youngest member. I get to celebrate his birthday all the way from December 15 to New Year’s! Junsu was born on December 15, 1986 but was registered on January 1, 1987, which means party all the days in between!!
- His message to his future wife is: “Sweetie~ If you become my wife, I will make you the happiest person in the world. I will sing for you whenever you want.” (From Star Show…all five members’ messages memorized word-for-word after watching it three times.)

Okay, in all seriousness, how do I know all this about him? I’m not even a stalker. …Or am I? Maybe all Cassiopeias are stalkers.